Trying to do NaNoWriMo in the middle of a pandemic has been an interesting experience, definitely. It wasn’t helped by my addictive personality and a wonderful gift from my partner for my birthday which devoured a lot of time. I’m not regretful of that at all, to be honest. If people ever needed a good distraction it’s now, and it is a great outlet for creative energy too – and probably one that I’ll talk about in another post. Working from home full time is difficult enough. Maintaining concentration past that to keep writing has been a huge struggle.
With five days left, I have a third of my word goal left to go. Uh oh. The actual numerical value is, on paper, something I’ve smashed out easily in normal times. These aren’t normal times though and I’m determined not to beat myself up about it if I don’t hit that goal. No matter what happens between now and the end of the month, I still have ten THOUSAND more words towards a full draft of this novel and that feels like a lot.
I guess my point is, celebrate your successes and don’t sweat the small stuff.
The synopsis is finished! The first thing ticked off the Goal Post! I even earned myself a box of doughnuts out of it thanks to a very kind and encouraging co-worker who promised me them if I hit the deadline. They were delicious.
This marks another large step on my journey. This has been blocking me for a long time and honestly has taken far longer than it should have done but unfortunately the way life has been, I’ve just really struggled to prioritise it and work on it to the level it needed. That is behind me now though, and my life has been far more suited to actually pursuing my creativity again. I’ve gone from no capacity for it, to the parts that I enjoy, and now finally to the struggles and hard parts that just need to get done. I’m at the point now where I can dedicate the time and energy to really pushing for what I want. And that’s to keep pushing and move through the “writing” part of this journey and onto the “publishing” part.
Unfortunately, this part comes with a lot of tense waiting, a lot of hurt and disappointment, and rejection. Then a whole lot of getting back up off the ground and going headfirst back into it again. Is this really what I want, I wonder? Yes, it is.
What are the next steps for me?
Submissions! Eeeep! Time to start sending Through the Black off to agents and keep it on submission. I’m hoping to have a quick turn around from hearing back from one agent and getting it out to the next. This step is going to need thick skin and a lot of chocolate. I fully expect to spend a lot of it questioning myself and wondering why I’m bothering. I’ve worked hard for a long time to get to this point though, and I’m not going to let feeling bad make me give up now.
Focusing on other projects! I mentioned at the start of the year that it was time to get The Fishperer beta ready, and now that this synopsis is out of the way I can actually get back to some of the fun parts of writing! Huzzah!
Relaxing! I’ve been pushing pretty hard since the start of the year on several different things, so with the releases of Rune Factory 4 and Animal Crossing, you can expect to hear from me again in about 6 months.